Tragic death of Carlisle Blind Date TV show girl
Last updated at 11:31, Thursday, 26 August 2010
A former Blind Date contestant died after killing herself at her Carlisle home, a coroner has ruled.
Pamela Anne Noble, of Osprey Close, off Newtown Road, was found hanged by her boyfriend last December 11. She left Christmas cards and a note apologising to loved ones then took her own life, Carlisle Coroner’s Court heard yesterday.
The 26-year-old’s distraught friends, family and boyfriend, Graeme Lewis, told the inquest she suffered from crippling low self-esteem. Popular and with many friends, Miss Noble appeared on the ITV1 show Blind Date in 2002.
But those closest to her said she was riddled with insecurities and did not believe she was attractive.
Miss Noble also convinced herself, without any grounds, that her live-in boyfriend was unfaithful or would leave her.
Mr Lewis said he realised his girlfriend was vulnerable and had begun neglecting to eat properly. He said: “She would have a couple of bad days and she would spiral into depression. Everywhere we went and everything we did she became suspicious of my actions.
“But when she was on top of things, we could not have had a better life together.”
Hours before she killed herself, Miss Noble and Mr Lewis had a strained discussion about their relationship. The pair then went into separate bedrooms, but in the early hours Miss Noble appeared in her pyjamas in the doorway to where Mr Lewis slept.
He said: “I remember it vividly. She said regardless of what happened she’d always love me. I told her I loved her too.
“I thought we’d sort things out in the morning.”
Mr Lewis woke to find her dead at around 7.30am.
She left two negative pregnancy tests on the couple’s bed which Mr Lewis said he believed she had taken “to make sure she was not pregnant before she took her life”.
The court heard Miss Noble had cut her wrists with a knife some months previously, but that was believed to be a cry for help.
The inquest heard she had good, supportive relationships with her father David Noble, stepmother Charlotte and mother Shirley Noble.
Her best friend, Hayley Roberts, told the inquest they had spoken on December 10.
“She was down, but that was not uncommon,” said Miss Roberts.
“She had this fear of people leaving her. She was a troubled person.”
Brampton personal trainer, Thomas Ritson, also gave evidence at the inquest.
The pair knew each other after meeting at his workplace, the Gilded Lily in Carlisle.
She had later contacted him for fitness advice and he had asked her to be in a photo shoot for Carlisle Living magazine.
He said: “She was visibly surprised. She said ‘with a face like this?’”
Miss Noble, who was a dental nurse in Brampton, had driven to see him at his fitness studio the night before she died.
“She talked at length,” said Mr Ritson. “I felt like she was off-loading.”
Mr Lewis said his girlfriend had a “pattern” of seeking reassurance from him and that he would help her “with anything”.
He added: “The way Pamela loved her family and friends, I believe to this day that she would never do anything to anybody.
“She was the most amazing person to be around and I will always love her.”
David Roberts, coroner for North and West Cumbria, said Miss Noble’s motives were “inexplicable” and no-one could have known what she was about to do.
He said: “The question of why that particular night will be one the family will ask themselves forever.”
Mr Roberts recorded the official verdict that Miss Noble killed herself.
First published at 11:28, Thursday, 26 August 2010
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